I have a severe problem with concentrating. As in, I can’t really do it on cue, if you know what  mean. I’m in class, or in a game of football, and I KNOW I’m supposed to be focusing on what I’m doing, but there’s always something on my mind and it drowns everything else out.

Yesterday it was an 80’s song with a really catchy tune, as many 80’s songs do. It’s from the movie ‘Stop Fun’, I think. The one about giving someone their breath back. And it’s SO loud in my brain, like, you don’t even understand. The coach sent us to go and take down the tennis nets, and that’s way out the back of the school and the other guy got done quicker and there I am, all alone, and it’s really quiet. The song is already playing through my head- everyone knows what it’s like to have a song stuck in their head- but when it’s quiet, it’s like it drowns everything else out. So I just have to sit down and listen to the song, because it’s a good song. Took me, like, an hour just to take down the tennis nets because I was happy just listening to the song and thinking about other stuff. How long does it take professional sports netting people to do this kind of thing, anyway?

But yeah, it’s always like this with me. I was in maths yesterday and I got zero work done because I started thinking about how the main character in ‘Fantasy’ probably isn’t a good fit for the Aluminium Throne, and how his leadership qualities aren’t really kingly…and that was it. The hour was gone.

I’m in trouble now, obviously. I now have a catch-up session with the coach where he’s going to teach me all about sports netting and how to set it up, and I have a backlog of about six weeks of maths work. I’m not going to pay attention, though…because I never do. I can’t, even. Maybe I should see a psychologist or something. Or at least someone who puts up sports nets professionally.

-Jace